Get outta here. Just happen already. Let’s DO this.
Do you ever struggle with patience? I do. For many, patience is a virtue. For me, it just virtually sucks. I guess I’ve just never been very good at it.
A focus of mine, as a blogger, is to turn negative issues into positive.
I hope to leave my readers inspired and give them something tangible for their lives.
Spoiler alert: there is no lesson here, I’m just complaining. Leave while you can.
The Waiting Room of Life
Last September, I sent transfer applications to five universities all over the country. The schools span from Hawaii to New York. I thought, why not? With my wife, it’s our chance to roam.
The applications were finished. In the words I wrote, I staked my future. As an artist it was my heaviest project yet. It was the best epic I could muster.
In the end, these forms held my linguistic DNA. I put everything into them—everything but the impatient part, I guess. That was left with me to suffer, to yearn.
Narcissus & Goldmund
I’ve been reading Hermann Hesse lately, specifically the novel Narcissus and Goldmund. Last night, I came upon a passage I quite liked—a discussion between two artists.
Be patient! I’m well aware of what it is like to have completed a piece of work that was of great personal significance. I know that empty feeling. It will pass, believe me.
This soothed my soul. I’m not exactly sure why, I submitted college applications over six months ago. My problem is patience, not art. But still, as an artist, I never confronted the emptiness I was left with after submitting these papers.
Yet another reason to hate the waiting game.
I’d appreciate any good stories or tales of impatience. Can you relate? Help me out here!
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From James 1 “My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience….”. Enduring trials my friend….simply illustrates God love for you….His plans to use you at a level you’ve never imagined!
Thanks Andy! I always welcome your wise words. We should get together soon (we’re living in SLO right now). I’ll call you.
We can completely relate. Waiting is a time to lean into God and enjoy the gifts that could only come from Him.
I hate waiting too. But I have learned and am learning not to hold onto everything tightly. I do what I need to do and then keep giving it back to the Lord, so I don’t put all my hopes in it until God opens the doors or shuts them. Meanwhile I choose (not always easy) to enjoy the present (sometimes not that enjoyable) and find things to be thankful for, wherever I am in that present. I have learned not to make huge plans way ahead of time, but just to take things step by step (oh, so hard) and read and write blogs in the meantime (other than spending time with Him). 🙂